Quite a Day

Today was the most busy I've had in a long time! I had two appointments at the OB, one with a nurse (preliminary pregnancy stuff) at 11, and then with the doctor at 1:30. I took Asher to my mom's this morning; we got there around 10 am. Anyway, in between the nurse and doctor visit I ended up walking up to the hospital's lab (my doc's office is in the same building as the hospital) and getting my bloodwork done. Then I stopped at the cafe and had some AMAZING Mac and Cheese! Yum! It reminded me of the GREAT food at the hospital and I can't wait to stay there again and eat it! Anyway, at my doc appointment they couldn't hear a heartbeat, just like with Asher, so they scheduled a STAT Ultrasound at the hospital at 3:30. With 1 1/2 hours to kill, I went to Party City and shopped for Asher's birthday. Then it was back to the cafe (I was hungry again!) for some soup and salad, and then back to the lab area for the ultrasound! It was so cool to see the baby on the screen and see that he/she is really there...and there is only one baby! That's good, (I'm pretty sure it's good!). Anyway, it was so cool because you can see all the body parts but the baby's just so tiny. He/she was in there jumping around! Everything looked fine so that was good news. I have a picture. I hope to scan it so I can put it on here.

Something I'm thinking a lot about lately is whether to attempt a VBAC (Vaginal Birth After Cesarean Section). I was all ready to try it, but then I heard a statistic. They studied women who got to the pushing stage and then ended up having a C-Section. These women were significantly less successful at a VBAC than women who did not get to pushing. As you may or may not know, I pushed for 3 hours before having a C-Section. I don't want to do that all over again, only to have another C-Section delivery. Chances are I could have another big baby and that could significantly affect things. However, we'll be watching for that this time.

Anyway, to some people it's hard to understand why I want to attempt a VBAC and go through all the pain of labor and pushing again - Not to mention the (very low 1-2%) risk of uterine rupture). But part of me feels like I want another chance at it! Another chance to be able to hold my baby upon his coming into the world. For him to stay with me, where he should be, not in the nursery while I recover! To have that first moment to remember and to hold him right away, not merely look at him while I lay unable to move on an operating table.

I know ultimately the important thing is to have a healthy baby. Of course I won't jeopardize that. I haven't made up my mind yet, but these are the struggles I feel inside over the issue. If you think of it, say a prayer that I'd have peace in this area, and can trust God to lead us.

Well it's been quite a day. Good night, ALL!